Jealousy is a powerful thing that i rarely feel, but once i do and once it turns to hate i cannot go back. I feel like every inch that Z crept into my life, the more i was losing someone i loved. Its like every single thought, every single feeling and every single moment came true. The one person that i told everything to, suddenly just wanted Z. It hurts more that im made to feel crazy for feeling upset about it because they are happy. Happy leaving me, replacing me and ignoring me. The letter Z came into my life like a wrecking ball, but it wrecked the one relationship that was so close to my heart. Z is happy living the life i was living. Now im watching that life through a two way mirror wondering what i did wrong, how i can fix it, and if ill ever get it back. I think thats life though realizing that sometimes things will come to an end whether we like it or not. The letter Z might have took the life I lived, but they didnt take my big heart. I guess thats one thing im grateful for. Maybe one day ill get the relationships with my sister back. Maybe one day Z will give me the moment to get my sister back. Until then i have to focus on me……..
La Luna Esta Triste 