Having autism has always made me feel different from the average person. A normal person as some would say wouldnt have these big emotions that feel so uncontrollable. These emotions that hinder my relationship with people and myself. I often wonder why i was born this why, couldnt i have been normal, was my life meant to be filled with pain and uncertainty from the gecko. Sometimes i wanna close my eyes and not wake up. When i wake up, i remember how different i am. I remember that people dont take the time to see that difference. Im always too much, too sensitive and too depressed. I would like for people to be in my shoes and wonder how i feel living everyday in this bubble. This bubble that feels so suffocating. I have a high masking autism , but inside im a little girl screaming for help. I just wanna be normal……